Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Friday, June 04, 2004
Sighz. i juz survive 2 daes w a grp of kids ranging frm 7 yrs old to like 14 yrs old. i almost die. i feel so lucky tt i m e youngest child in e family. yahz. e baby of e family is so privileged. hahaz.
aniwae tis is a cip(community involvement programme) camp organised by my cca lahz. then we r suppose to have one of e kids as our buddy n i hav tis tamil gurl called thana. she is vry quiet n she hav such short hair tt pple keep on tinkin tt she is a boy. well she is vry gd xcept she dun hav ani confidence n refuse to try new things. also she emphasizes alot on winning. yahz. she is also under social welfare. heartache. i reallie do hope tt she gain sumtin frm tis camp though we r a bit e disorganised lahz.
aniwae i m vry happie w thana. however sum of my fellow bandmates r nt so lucky esp e guys coz e boys tt they hav as buddies r reallie little devils. they r so full of energy n keep on running ard. sum of them keep on asking to be carried ard n sum of them r not tt light lorz. i c my fellow bandmates arhz reallie feel sorrie for them. so at nite rite, mi n sum of e gurls take over their duties of coaxin e naughty ones to slp...n we onli managed tt ard 2 am...sighz. as 4 e gurls they r generally more well behaved but sum of them r reallie vry vry spoilt. i dun noe wat to sae. tis world is juz like tt. sum pple r so deprived while others r like spoilt rotten.
learn a few tings frm tis camp. i tink i start to understand kids betta. yahz. hmmz. most of them listen to reason. wat reallie matter is how u phrase n present ur "arguement" to them. working w kids is tirin but vry wonderful.
toking abt tis remind mi of another cip camp i done w another cca on 29 may. tt camp emphasizes on drama while tis camp is on music. yahz. tt camp rite. my grp hav 3 vry obedient kids. 1 boy n 2 gurlz. n we won e best play, best actor n best actress. feel so happie lahz. muz reallie thanx my fellow group leader nicole who put in so much effort w mi. yahz. reallie enjoy e experience. aniwae we act out a adapted scene frm harry potter n i was e dragon.sighz. why cant i be e pretty gurl for once?
2dae went home w amir. senior frm band. same section but i nv noe tt he live in woodlands. aniwae we were tokin crap lahz. then reach woodlands liao rite then we touch on e topic of e band concert at esplanade. then i tell him tt i thot tt i hav a seat in e arrangement. n he say yahz coz there's xtra chair in e saxaphones section. i feel like murderin myself. i had let go of such a wonderful opportunity juz becoz i dun hav e courage to check w aniwan. wat a waste.
i feel depresed lahz. but nvm. becoz i noe tt after a gd nite slp. e day will be brighter. wat do u tink?
dreaming awae at 10:08 PM
