Reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Everyday,
it's as if I play
A part.
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
but I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see?
Staring straight,
Back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world
Where I have to hide in my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight
back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show,
who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free
to fly
That burns with a need to know
the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be
a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
someone else
for all time.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
Hmmz. vry long nv blog. hahaz. coz i was away in a chalet. with none other than my bandmates. i luv them reallie vry much. aniwae e chalet lasted 3 days 2 nites. so tis is wat happen lahz.
day 1
reach tenah merah mrt station 5 mins late. luckily wasnt e latest. hahaz. then went to e chalet lahz. settle down. play cards. bbq n i was like preparin e chicken wings. e wan who set up e fire is reallie vry gd manz. e fire is vry pro. yahz. then after tt sum of e gurlz includin mi went 4 a nite swim ard 9 pm. we played e slide. n each of us scream as we cum down e slide. so we were caught n chased away by e security guard lahz. coz e pool was closed by then. but we sneaked back into e pool again lahz. then we started to act like coconut floatin on the pool. so funnie lorz. cing so mani "coconuts" on e surface of the water. then more pple join us. hahaz. so fun. then we pushed/pulled more pple in. i n sumwan pushed amir into e pool. hahaz. n i ended up being pushed into e water again lahz by none other than amir who wanted revenge. hahaz. yahz. but e security guard cum lahz. so sad n we kana scolded. but i hav fun. went back to shower than started to play cards again. then watched movies -- never being kissed n pirates of carribean. but i nv finish e latter coz cannt tahan liao. went to slp ard 4.15 am
day 2
wake up ard 7am. then left e chalet to buy movie tix for harry potter lahz. n to buy gabriel's birthdae presenz w amir, paula, yee kiat n nigel. so funny. aniwae we bought a photo album n papers so tt we can pen down our thots n put it inside e album 4 him. it's vry nice. but e movie is not. sighz. vry disappointed. but all tis while i always feel tt e bk is betta. but tis time it's reallie vry bad lahz. no quidditch lahz. sighz. oh yahz. then after tt mi n iris('cousin') went 2 east coast to meet e rest. n yee keow went home to look after brother. n we went cyclin w zhong ye(ah ma). cycle is so fun. we went to e end of e park n enjoy e sea view. so nice. but i hav a bit of prob cyclin lahz. coz it's my 3rd time cyclin. onli learnt it last yr. hahaz. but tis time no accident. thank gdness. but my butt hurt like anitin. yahz then went back to chalet n play marjong. dun noe how to spell. play until 10.45 went to shower. then start to do gabriel's presenz. yahz. then at 12pm celebrated gabriel's birthdae. so funnie. amir smashed e cake rite into gabriel's face. but e cake is vry xpensive lahz. wasted. hahaz. sorrie i m a treasurer. so abit e money minded. then continue to play marjong. then watch a bit of movie 'mulan' then slp lahz. but couldnt find a place to slp. kana bitten by mosquito. in e end slp like on e sofa w my legs over e arms. super uncomfortable. in e end manage to squeeze into e bed w hui yan n vicky. sorrie for wakin them up. but luv them lahz. 4 sharin e bed w mi. tt's 5.30am.
day 3
wake up at 9am. then ate cup noodles for breakfast. then pack up n play cards. yahz then check out. then went to tampines mall for lunch. but e lunch is vry bad lahz. dun ever go to yoshinoya. e service is vry bad n e food taste horrible. n it's super xpensive. not worth it manz. yahz. wanted to go n sing karaoke but 2 tired. so went home to sleep. take e bus w amir. n we tok crap on e bus again lahz. 2 of us arhz. hahaz. 2molo is band investitue. so went shoppin w yee keow to buy white long sleeved shirt, black alined skirt, black stockings n black court shoes can? wow. feel so accomplished manz. need 2 go n iron e clothes soon. still haven write e letters to amir n gabriel my 2 super lame, funny n nice section seniors. will miss them. sighz. time pass so quickly.
dreaming awae at 8:10 PM